My First ‘Best Friend’, Forever…

That was almost 5yrs ago, I met her when we moved to San Diego. My first impression to her was, “Wow, she is beautiful!”.  With her blonde curly hair and tanned skin, she was so bright just as her personality. She was not just nice to me, but she let me feel very comfortable to be her friend. She was my first ‘best friend’ in the United States.
I mean, all my friends here in U.S. are very nice n very friendly, n I love them all. But she was a little difference. She told me many things, like almost everything, n she asked me my opinions for each things. I could feel that she trusted me as her friend. N so I could be so comfortable trusting her as well.
She was always there for me, for all of us. When I needed help, she offered me even before I asked. She was that kinda person, she loved helping her friends.
She always brought laughter. We, this I would call our military family in this neighbor, did a lot of pot-luck style gathering, like every weekend. If she was not there, we felt like we were missing something. Then she showed up, the party started.
One day… that was December 31st, 2006. She came to our door n said “I’m gonna take you to get nose piercing today! I don’t care if you don’t want to, if you are scared, I’m getting you one today!” I was already over 30yrs old, so I was a lil surprised, I thought I was a lil too old for that(that’s what I thought back then). But anyway she got me one. I liked it. She said “See? I told you, it would look good on you!” You know it’s like we were teens, she got me nose piercing all of sudden, n got me excited n all…
When we had to leave San Diego, I promised her that we’ll come back. We always planned to move back to San Diego in the future. That plan kept getting stronger after we left. Because we felt that was our home. I was not just saying that, but that place was our home. So every time I talked to her on the phone, I missed her, but we’ll be back there, n everything will be back.
It was so sudden. I never thought this would end this way. I never thought I won’t be able to see her again. That breaks my heart. I won’t be able to see her again. There were still so many things I wanted to talk to her, do with her, so many places to go…
I am very sorry for her family. Especially we cannot be there for them right now… We may live far away from each other, but we’ll always be there for her family. They are family to us as well. Since we met them, they’ve always been, n they will always be.
I’ll never ever forget about her, n I’ll live with my memory of her. I’ll never forget what you taught me, what we laughed together, what we did together… N I’ll pass on to ppl I will meet, what a friend can be in our life.
R.I.P. Misty. You’ll live in my memory forever. Thank you for being such a great friend. Thank you for letting me being in your life. The time you n me spent together was irreplaceable…

Viva Glam Gaga

I had lunch with my friend today, n she gave me a surprise gift! Ta-da! Viva Glam Gaga! Yay! It's SOOOO pretty!! I haven't wore this type of pink for a long time, but I LOVE PINK!! As soon as we came home, yes, I couldn't wait to try it on(even though I only have to go pick up John after that...) OMG! It's so pretty!!!! Lately I've been wearing only nude colors, n I almost forgot how pretty pink is!! Now I feel like to put full makeup...lol I love it!!!

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Dear My Friend

Dear my friend,

After I could say a good-bye to you with smile at the airport, now I finally can tell you how I really feel... I didn't wanna cry, I didn't want you to cry, n I could only pretend I was fine, that's the only way to avoid tears... I am not good at dealing with my emotion, besides tears are not our style.lol

We were always joking about something(n somebody?lol), n we'll keep doing that. We always made each other laugh, n we'll continue doing that too. We may not be able to see each other for a lil while, that doesn't mean our friendship is gonna be changed. I admit that I feel a little emptiness without you(who am I gonna talk s**t about ppl with, right???), but we'll be fine because we know that we'll see each other again(for sure! I'm gonna make sure that we will!lol).

We should not be sad about this short good-bye, because I am so glad that I met you. I am so glad that we could spend all this time together. N I am so glad that we became best friends.

I won't say "I will not forget about you." because this is not the end!(Besides... that's just so impossible to forget about you, right? I won't be able to forget about you even if I tried!lmao) It's just the end of our first season!(Yea, it's always more powerful in the second season... hehehehehe...lol)

So I didn't cry, it was not because I was okay. But we didn't cry because that's the way we are. So... Thank you for "not" crying but smiling with me all the way. Thank you for letting us be the way we are. N, thank you for being such a good friend!

XOXO

From your very first Japanese friend who made you try sushi, who also brought you into the world of "Japanese chocolate"...lmao

Tattoo! Ha!

Yep, I got my first tattoo today! The top one is mine, the second one is Lani's, n the third one is Carla's.

Mine is about 5 to 6 inch? It took a little over an hour I think, it didn't hurt as I expected. This kinda pain, totally I can handle, I would say.lol Well the part I got, which is below my neck between the shoulder blades, is probably not really a painful spot.

In case you didn't read the post I wrote about why I pick this design... This cross-anchor is the symbol of my hubby's rate in Navy. He loves what he does, n I would say he's born to be a boatswain mate. I am really proud of him for what he does n how he does. So that's kinda one way to show him my love, maybe?lmao

Anyway, it was fun! It was good I went with my friends too! I already sent this pic to my hubby, but can't wait til he comes home n actually sees it!

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Back of the Truck...

We are on the way to Bellow Beach... Yay, we are on the back of the truck! In Hawaii, it's totally legal! So we are just having fun...!

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Dare to be Great

Ta-da!

I've received this "Dare to be Great" Award from Lori @When We Listen! It's such an honor n the very wonderful thing to know that we can meet another great friends via this social networks...

I started my blog to express myself without grabbin somebody's arm n make them listen to me.lol For myself, to express my thoughts on my blog, actually makes me more postive n active. And I thought, only ppl who have same thoughts would read, if nobody won't, then oh well, that's alright. That's what I thought first.

But by reading many ppl's blogs... OMG... there are so many ppl feels same way(I think) or even some other way which make me re-think about it... I could agree with so many ppl who I really don't know, but because of these blogs, I feel so close to them! How great is that?

Well not only blogs, but this whole social networks, it seems a little too much at the beginning, but as much as I dig, more I understand how great it is! I've met some great friends via Facebook as well... I mean, we probably will never meet in person, but don't you think it's just great to have few more ppl who may live the other side of country, or even the world, that you can say "Hello!" to? Isn't it nice to know that there are some ppl who have same thoughts as you?

I mean, unfortunately there are some bad ppl who take an advantage of this technology n do bad things too. So I totally understand that some ppl feel unsecure about this whole social network thing. Fortunately for me, I've met so many great ppl thru the internet, ppl who I actually wanna call "my friends". Even the friends who I met OFF the internet, I could get to know more about them thru this social networks. N the great thing about this is, it let me keep connected with all my friends...

So...
Thank you Lori to create this idea n letting me to be a part of this. And all of my friends(who I've been talking about this couple of days...), I wanna say thank you again! Love you all!

P.S.
I would love to pass this award on to all of my friends... but this award is more for those bloggers who are helping others by sharing the thoughts on their blogs. I will read through my favorites blogs, n I would like to send this award to them. Thank you!

The Border Line between "Friends" and "Not Friends"

Usually, there's really no rules about that. But sometimes, I have to ask myself, "Is she really my friend?"

I am the person who would call many ppl as "my friends". I mean, isn't it great to have a lot of friends? But what is the "friend" really, anyway? Does it have to be some ways?

I had this one friend. One day we, just me n her, were talking about the one girl, I mean she's my friend as well. Anyway, I said "I like her, I think she's really nice. I am glad to have her as my friend." Then the comment my friend gave me was "well, only if she thinks that you are her friend as well." I mean, she didn't even know about anything about me n her, then she just said thing like that. Of course that comment of her disgust me. I didn't wanna even talk to her after that.

Obviously I questioned to myself about what she said to me. Not about if the girl who I called "my friend" really thinks that I am her friend, but about if it really has to be under some kinda agreement to call each other "friends"?

We sometimes get upset to our friends too. But it doesn't mean, they are no more our friends. When they become a "not friend", there must be a good reason to it.

I don't talk to her everyday... is she my "not friend"?

I don't know everything about her... is she my "not friend"?
I don't go out with her very often... is she my "not friend"?

I haven't even called her for a while... is she my "not friend"?

I saw her today, n said hi. But we didn't really have time to stop n talk... is she my "not friend"?

I never actually met her in person... is she my "not friend"?

The answer is NO, THEY ARE MY "FRIENDS". I would proudly call them as my friends. After all, that's what all matters.

So who is really my "not friend"?

I thought she was my friend, but I don't get any respects from her.

I thought she was my friend, but she obviously doesn't care how I feel.

I thought she was my friend, but she said mean things to me a lot.

I thought she was my friend, but I am not comfortable with her anymore!

Yes, that's the thing. How I feel about this person! When I realized these things, I just stopped caring about her. N that was it. There I put the border line. N you know what? That was actually the girl who gave me the comment.(Well there were more issues between me n her...) The girl we were talking about is still my friend, but the girl who I was talking to is not my friend anymore!

I am a human. So I am not perfect. So I have feelings n dislikes sometimes. I don't even seek "perfect" from my friends. They are my friends, that's good enough. My friends I have today, they are all my friends. And I am pretty sure I will meet more.

I may not be actually there all the time for them.

I may not even talk to them often anymore.

I may have not met them in person yet.

There may be still a lot of things I don't know about them.

But still, they are my friends. New friends, old friends, best friends, just friends... No matter what some ppl say, they are my friends.

So... if you are reading this... you are my friend with no question.:):):) N, again... thank you for being my friend.

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Thank You All for Being My Friends...

I just want to say...

Thank you all for being my friends!

Believe or not, I do have some kind of "persecution complex"(??? I used my dictionary... does it make sense?) about I am a Japanese. As you know, I do act like one of you all... like American?lol I do love the life here in United States. I do love the way you think... So I just want to blend in one of you...

But in the end, I am Japanese. Fortunately all my friends don't care about that at all. I mean, it probably not a big deal about it...lol Well, I am actually a proud Japanese as well. OK, now I am confusing you, huh?lol

My point is... Probably most of foreigners, not only here in U.S., but anywhere, most of us have some kind of feeling like this, I think. Especially when we really want to be a part of the country... It's not that we are having hard times to blend in, but it's probably something that we cannot avoid to feel...

But here, my friends... All of my friends here in this country(and some from the other countries as well...), you make me very comfortable being here. I am a very lucky girl to have you all... Of course starting with my hubby Chris, thank you for letting me being in your life... And all of you, my friends... I love you all so much! Because of you, I can be so happy everyday!

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